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« on: January 11, 2014, 11:43:34 pm »
So. I have just been tossed into (what appears to be) a bit of a complicated situation.
>So I like this girl.
>She has a boyfriend. Darn.
>She asks a friend of mine if I'm single while blushing. No boyfriend anymore?
>Give her a silly "roses are red" poem
>Runs away.
>Go to Christmas Break for two weeks.
>No way to contact her.
>Express interest in her (I think?) on our return.
>Turns out she has a blog.
>I have a tag in it.
>Friend of mine also looks at blog.
>Finds posts with me tagged in them.
>And her boyfriend.
>WAIT WHAT
>My friend and his girlfriend, concerned for me, lean that she and her boyfriend are (now were?) still together.
>Spend that night almost throwing up from stress
>I confront here (In my wet noodle, poor eye contact, bursting into stress-ridden tears kind of way)
>She says she thought I lost interest in her (I'VE BEEN INTO YOU THIS WHOLE YEAR WOMAN WHAT ARE YOU THINKING
>And also says that they're breaking up.
And here's the problem: My friend says that they think she said that to absolve herself from any confusing moral issues that may have arisen. She also profusely apologized for the whole situation. I expressed that I didn't want any animosity between us, that I still wanted to stay in good standing with her. I took her to the local fencing club that day, as we had planned that week. No awkwardness beyond my and her usual.
WHAT JUST HAPPENED. My friend still is suspicious that she was "just saying" that they broke up to comfort me more or something. But I don't feel like that's the case. I don't even know if her thinking I had lost interest was a viable thing to believe! I think it is, because I'm so distant, untalkative and unproactive with people outside of my core friend group that I could be perceived as completely unattached to ANYTHING. But then, my friend is so sure of his point...
Besides the question of what is happening here, there is also the question of whether to pursue it any further. I'm pretty sure she's no less into me, and I'm scared to death but otherwise I am still into her. However, she's a senior, I'm a junior, and she already knows that she's going to college on the other side of our 10-hour-wide state.
help me internet im scared