You’re down a bad road, man, and I really hope you find a better way forward.
Pat, remember when I found a swastika in the nether on your Minecraft server, and I brought it to your attention, and you were like "**** nazis" and you destroyed the swastika? I miss that Patman.
You know what’s weird is when you responded to this post back in 2017, you made it seem as if I’d been the one who asked you to destroy the thing. I hadn’t. You wanted to before I had a chance to say anything else. I saw a bunch of glowstones on the ceiling or underside of the floor or whatever and something about how they were placed made me pretty sure they didn’t crop up like that naturally, and I just wanted someone I trusted to see it was there besides me. To make sure I wasn’t just imagining things. Because its hard to get people to realize just how often that stuff shows up online. You were pretty passionate about tearing the thing to shreds.
I don’t know why you started acting like this. Or why you chose make your return this way. This isn’t clever trolling or even cheap shock value or whatever you want to call it. It just reads like you’re saying a bunch of inflammatory slurs to see if the people you used to know still care about you enough to be hurt by it.
See, I’m thinking sometime a few years ago, you came across some people online elsewhere using good ideals and high minded rhetoric to cover for their own genuinely toxic personal behavior in some rather messed up ways, which unfortunately does happen and does suck, and can be genuinely tricky and frustrating to call out, especially if the people doing it are more media savvy than you and know how to make themselves look good while also pretending the people calling them out for their toxic personal behavior must not care about the larger issues. (
Patton Oswalt tackles the subject pretty well here) That much I think is fair to be mad about. But rather than try and process it and contextualize it and separate their behavior from the very real issues they claimed to be speaking for, you became disillusioned enough to think the issues in question were themselves a crock, and you fell down a rabbit hole of treating everyone else like they were in on it. And you fell in with a crowd that was happy to reenforce that view and encouraged you to antagonize people. And you internalized some pretty messed up beliefs of your own.
I genuinely hope you’re staying healthy.
I’m sorry you felt like this was how to come back.
