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Everything Else / Re: shame thread
« on: January 13, 2017, 03:23:23 pm »
Oh god this is gonna be bad

I Shall Try
Elbows: baghfder m aqnm 212
Nose: bagder man 22
Toes: bbqatgee44 bmkjqwnhj 22123
Fingers: BAdger Man 22

Oh, not as bad as it could have been.

like my status if you remember Me But In Capitals

Storytelling and Roleplaying / Re: Wound
« on: January 06, 2017, 05:11:38 pm »
What's that yonic thing?

Everything Else / Re: Dankest, Most Specific Meme Depository
« on: January 04, 2017, 07:20:16 am »

This is my truest calling

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: December 14, 2016, 01:06:01 pm »
Separate post because poem:

Words belted off the top of my head
A way to cope without control
A better solution than dread
I know I need a helping hand
But I don't know what it'd do
A lift just to help me stand
Or just a distraction

I spend my energy on emotional labor
Overcoming my past
Still, tied to unseen masters
I try
I do
I try to do
But I never seem able to

I seek the
Slow descent
Of numbness
But I can not find it
An addiction for the nation

I stand in the middle of things I can't control
Expected to sell myself
To afford some petty toll
My identity
My face
My existence
My fate
Questioned for it's
Nonconformity, it's
Lack of brevity
For it's

Confused with no flow
Lost in a cold snap with no snow
I stand on the corner
Waiting to meet a stranger
Two in the morning
And despite my face
I feel no danger

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: December 14, 2016, 12:39:53 pm »
For background, it's about the diagnosis I received about 3 years ago. A major personal disaster of mine was labeled a delusion. But I know it's true. I prevented an even bigger disaster.

I was busy fixing the disaster when its whole existence was called into question. That is wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I wanted help with fixing it. I did not want to hear it was not real.

But I know it is. I should not have let them interfere with my life. I knew what I needed to do before I was told it was wrong.

I should not have lost sight on what I know. I was on the right track there. I need to get back on track.

I was okay. And I need to get my old self back to get better. I knew what I was doing, and I should have never doubted myself.
<3 I feel that. I may not know exactly how you feel, or what happened, but, being a trans person, I am often told that I am... Delusional, insane, broken, that I should be put down, that I'm a freak, a monster, a predator, a lie.

If you want to talk about this, at all, send me a PM? I know I can't change your past, and I won't even pretend to try that, but I can offer an ear, a shoulder, a wall to bounce your thoughts off of. <3

Of course, I'm not a therapist, I'm just a lil trans girl nihilotranshumanist <3

Yeah, I mean - which part of huge gnawing secret did people not understand? That means I am not going to tell you. Inevitably someone is going to wonder what it is but I'm telling you. You don't want to know. I don't want you to know.

That's just sometimes how it goes. And I'm telling you it's fine.

When I say you won't understand, I mean it. You would have to live it to understand it. I also wrote 20 pages about it once. That might help you understand. Basically the explanation would have to be a small book. No one has time for that. But if I just blurt it out, it will come out wrong. We could no longer be friends, because I know you get the wrong idea.

So unless I intend to become a part-time novelist, you will never know. If you just heard the entire story, you'd understand. But you won't. An incomplete explanation would provide more misunderstandings than it solves. That is a risk that I cannot take.

I have time for that <3

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: December 13, 2016, 02:41:04 pm »
GD, would you recommend reading that poetry in any specific clumping? I want to give a thoughtful response but it's a lot of text and my ADD makes it hard to do. <3 Was wondering if like, any specific stanza breaks could be used as digestion points.

Love you tho <3

Forum Games / Re: how would you describe the poster above you?
« on: November 28, 2016, 09:24:12 am »

Art / Re: ART!
« on: November 28, 2016, 09:21:53 am »
dope  8) guess i need to start working on toppling regional communist matriarchy

Forum Games / Re: how would you describe the poster above you?
« on: November 27, 2016, 06:00:35 pm »
A very open minded guy, 4 a boi

Art / Re: ART!
« on: November 27, 2016, 05:56:46 pm »
I've been organizing politically recently, so my art has a sort of... You'll see

thei r linqs

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: November 13, 2016, 09:24:52 pm »
I might see about recording the next few times I free-style (rapping), and see about transcribing it. Might send it to here if I like it.

But if you want to see more of my ish, I'm on Instagram as esoteric.aesthetics

Everything Else / Re: 2016 Elections
« on: November 10, 2016, 09:58:55 am »
Is it too early/late for me to say: I predict Trump will win. ??

-coughs- Do I win?

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: November 02, 2016, 02:34:04 pm »
I usually post my poetry to Instagram, one run through, and so, I'll present it as it was published

Quote from: Instagram ; esoteric.aesthetics
Cw: forced smile, death, defeatism, pessimism, evil, religion, arguments, failure, systemic oppression, lies, depression, socialization, stewardship

Set in stone
But still unknown
I walk through the valley
But still
All I know
Is evil

I smile
To a stranger
As though lost souls had met many times before
A fake reaction on my half
Something I do to get the weirdness off the floor
I am happy
To see you
Just not as happy
As I seem to be

With cravings from
A witch carving
A new
For life
I stay inside my head
Would I be better off dead

I sit
Yet surrounded by people
Like a church
Pews filled
Rats running through the steeple
I see no evil


I advocate
Some opposite direction
Just to see
Where it takes us

A chronic contrarian
Erotic Aquarian
Looking down the stairs again
Knowing I'll come back empty handed
No answers
No alternative
Except a life lived agrarian
And I cry

My poetry a reflection of the feeling behind the day
And while others fight and argue
I just like to come and play
**** what they say
And what I say
Or you say
Because we all know
That just cuz you say you're planting seeds
Does not mean


Everything Else / Re: The Gun Topic
« on: October 31, 2016, 05:00:45 pm »
Surely you want something elegant and ladylike?

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It so cute! Haha, but I'm looking for something that can stop a bonehead cryptofascist from bouncing my trans*dyke head off the pavement. At that point, I'd want maybe one of these.

Art / Re: Must Write Bad Poetry
« on: October 29, 2016, 12:50:44 am »
The edge is where it
Jagged and rough
Giving access to the depths
Hidden behind layer
After layer
After layer
Of cells
Pick my brain
Learn what makes me tick
I put my words in languid flows
To make sure the content
Because human are thick
And sometimes what I need is a hug
Or a kiss
But usually there's something deeper I miss
So I write this stuff down
So that I know it's all out
Because my mind is sick
A mental bug
A glitch
There's no doubt

But yeah, edge af

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